28. My soul yearns to know this most entangled enigma. Forbear to
shut up, O Lord my God, good Father, through Christ I
beseech Thee, forbear to shut up these things, both usual and
hidden, from my desire, that it may be hindered from penetrating
them; but let them dawn through Thy enlightening mercy, O Lord.
Of whom shall I inquire concerning these things? And to whom shall
I with more advantage confess my ignorance than to Thee, to whom
these my studies, so vehemently kindled towards Thy Scriptures, are
not troublesome? Give that which I love; for I do love, and this
hast Thou given me. Give, Father, who truly knowest to give good
gifts unto Thy children. Give, since I have undertaken to know,
and trouble is before me until Thou dost open it. Through Christ,
I beseech Thee, in His name, Holy of Holies, let no man
interrupt me. For I believed, and therefore do I speak. This is
my hope; for this do I live, that I may contemplate the delights of
the Lord. Behold, Thou hast made my days old, and they pass away,
and in what manner I know not. And we speak as to time and time,
times and times, "How long is the time since he said this?"
"How long the time since he did this?" and, "How long the time
since I saw that?" and, "This syllable hath double the time of
that single short syllable." These words we speak, and these we
hear; and we are understood, and we understand. They are most
manifest and most usual, and the same things again lie hid too deeply,
and the discovery of them is new.